This picture is a million stories. It is the story of my
loftiest dreams coming true, a homecoming, an unpleasant surprise, and an
unlikely victory for traumatic anosmia.
I am
quite aware of the fact that this looks just like present day Jenna (minus the
fashion atrocity that was permitted to happen), but this photo was snapped and
this moment trapped forever in the summer of 2007.
In her
book “Family Photographs: Content, Meaning, and Effect” Hirsch claims that “The
places we photograph are our roots” (47). She goes on to talk about neat scenes
of fences and houses and streets: traditional, rooted places of belonging. Though
at first glance, it may not look like it, this is a photograph of my, and more
directly of my father’s, roots. This is not a street. This is not a home. And
no, this is not just a random pile of rocks on a foggy day. This is a volcano,
and it is located in Indonesia, the country my dad calls home. I had, for as
long as I could remember, wanted more than anything to visit this place.
Unlike
the “symbolic pieces of territory” that Hirsch writes about—stairs that
families return to for Easter pictures every year or a front stoop for the
first day of each school year—my family has only been to this volcano once and
has spent the vast majority of its time on the opposite side of the globe. This,
however, also communicates about my family. We enjoy new and unique experiences
and have had the opportunity to visit lots of faraway places, even if only once.
The lack of architecture in the photo also reflects my family’s preference for
the outdoors.
My
favorite part of this photo is something that would not jump out to a casual
viewer. If you look at each of our faces, you will see hesitant smiles on each
of us beside my sister Joely, who is beaming unashamedly and my brother Jack,
who just doesn’t know better. When I’ve mentioned that I climbed a volcano,
people’s first thoughts are usually of red hot lava and black igneous rock. As
you can see, that was not the case. People also generally think about climbing
up and not down to get into the volcano. This was a volcano with lots of gray
rocks and hot pools of equally gray water.
Last on
people’s minds is the sense of smell. It was not even a thought that crossed my
mind before going to the volcano, but it was my first thought upon arriving.
The smell of sulfur was terribly pervasive and terribly unpleasant. It smells
like eggs in the worst of ways.
My
sister, however, has traumatic anosmia; she cannot, nor has she ever been able
to, smell. She is anosmic, smell-blind. Joely absolutely reveled in the
discomfort of everyone smelling this situation. “This is so fun,” she said
beaming, taunting us. It was adorable and annoying.
This is
my family. Travels, adventures, togetherness, and anosmia. I like it a lot.
